What a Week

So this week has just been odd. Between losing a friend, making amends with an old friend, trying to get friends to make amends with one another, I'm drained. I'm drained emotionally and mentally. I really wish there weren't so much crap going on right now. I've been incredibly tempted to just say the heck with everything and every one who annoys me and walk away from anything having to do with the internet and online communities. I've been the victim of backstabbing, lies, other peoples rage and issues, followed by relentless attacks via phone and email. I'm sick of it. And I'm done.

I have a toddler who needs me, I have a home that needs my attention (and a good cleaning!), I have a boyfriend who is wondering why I'm so cranky and I have persistent heartburn. Did I mention that I've been having referred shoulder pain again and I'm afraid that my man made bile ducts may be scarring over AGAIN? That's pretty darned scary. I can't handle spending more time in the hospital and coming home with more tubes in my body and a bili bag hanging from it. I don't want to spend the three days before Bonnie's birthday stressing about how I need to get things done and can't because I'm in too much pain.

The message board I created for support seems to be going down the crapper quick, and I'm not happy. I wanted it to be drama free. Instead it ended up a repeat of the one I had to leave because it was shut down due to the same damned thing.

On the up side of things, my daughter can now count to 12 and sing her ABC's. Where did she learn this stuff? She can identify shapes like "crescent" and "octagon" too. Yay for Blues Clues! Blues Clues has become her absolute favorite show these days. She would watch it from dawn til dusk if we allowed it, and frequently runs around yelling "A clue! I found it!" and "Hanny danny noboot!" (handy dandy notebook).

Bonnie now weighs in at 28 pounds and is 34 inches tall. My little peanut who I swore was going to starve herself is now chowing down almost anything and everything she can get her hands on.